A year and some has passed since graduating from university.  It seems like eons ago. I never formed my whirlwind career in journalism as I had dreamed of. I have forever since been working as a consultant for a medical agency and grind out 60 hours a week to the system. I hardly see my friends,  I don't see much of my family, and I've not had any chances to branch out and reboot my love for writing since what seems like forever, and I want to blame everyone for my failure but will never point that same accusing finger at myself.

I've matured in ways that startled even me, and furthermore, I've become far more shrewd and perplexed at even the slightest comment that snags a nerve at any time I don't want to make social contact.

This life, this time continuum consisting of birthdays reminding me of how much older I'm getting, how many of my colleagues and school classmates are marrying and birthing children, how many people are leaving me to darken in my own misery and to never speak to me again, its all beginning to get incredibly boring and rigid.

I'm a woman of routine,  and I'm bored of being a slave to this system.

I'm too full of worries and analyse risk factors and fret too much about what others will think of me.  I am a self loathing pitiful senseless creatures when it comes to obiding to anyone's rules but my own.  The shameless urge and delirious desperate need to please and obtain praise from those who hardly look twice your way makes my brain turn inside out.

I'm dwindling out of control and to the point where I feel I need to make drastic change.  I need positivity,  a good healthy spirit,  a morsel of faith and hope, and most of all, a smile on my face.

I want to pursue my career in film journalism, and I will start my new plan as kf tomorrow.

This means a new blog and an unfortunate goodbye from me on this account,  as I feel this is too amateur and a childish attempt to what I propose to achieve. I may bite my words and return to post a little on here but primarily,  I'll be focusing on a new refreshing blog so I can finally kick start the career I had once dreamed of and hopefully you'll all see me in a new renewed respectful and humble perspective.

I appreciate all of you who have read the jaw jarring sodding awful articles I've written on here and I'd love it if you could support my new blog which I hope to start tomorrow night

I love you trolls but mama evil has to do her thing.

Peace out
 Much love x